One of the beauty of Krishna Consciousness, I am finding is that you get technique of deep thinking that actually gives satisfactory result or change you to more concentrate towards your energy and channelize it.
I clearly noticed a very small difference by analyzing what I like to do developed through what our senses like, habits versus what I would love to. A clear example of myself is that I am in habit of keeping nice and tidy home, organised and make things easy to do and all that which I had been doing so many years before having kid. After having child, when finding it difficult to maintain it due to lack of energy, ignoring my first priority responsibilities, I felt so frustrated and blamed it all to my luck that I have no-one to help me.
After analysing my situation, I felt that I just do, this not something I actually love, I just do out of my habit which is overtaking me. I completely ignored what is more joyful for me which will give me more satisfaction, giving importance to something which is degrading me will just make me to lose my inner strength. At one point in our life we all mix up this little difference and lose our inner strength. Something that you really love to do, would always direct you to manage it in right way, you will accept all the hard work/management it comes with and lastly will always create positive energy in you which will be reflected in your personality.
Taking this concept further, I have found when I unable to think of Krishna/Chant his name due to busy family days or whatever reasons, felt lack of peace in myself but at same time find it manageable as well. I noticed that I am thinking about him/chanting whatever time limit is upon me, tried to make the most of it.
A true positive energy comes with its own power to maintain itself in all respects which declines all the questions of not doing it.
HARE KRISHNA KRISHNA KRISHNA KRISHNA HARE HARE HARE RAM RAM RAM HARE HARE
This short story of Udhav who was best friend and devotee of Krishna explains very beautifully knowledge becomes not just boring after a certain point,it becomes source of proud,which harms the personality . Udhav who claimed himself very knowledgeable person and loving Krishna, easily became a proud person which was leading to degrading of personality.
The beauty of true association with Krishna is he fully takes care of you and lets you free from any personality impurity.Krishna immediately sent him Vrindavan(highest spiritual place in the world) asked him to give message to all his loving gopis. He instantly followed the orders and left for Vrindavan.
Vrindavan’s gopis madly went to Udhav to inquire about Krishna,they soon started complaining about Krishna,asking several questions about his lifestyle,along with tears in their eyes.Seeing all this Udhav got initial impression of gopis i.e.full of ignorance and felt they are just wasting their time.As a great scholar,he immediately started explaining about Karma,life,death,and insisting importance of reading scriptures.All gopis found him extremely boring, they straightway said”what they would do by gaining all knowledge when their minds are always occupied by memories of Krishna “.
These long lectures on life,death are full of dissatisfaction if you are not loving Krishna by thinking of his different leelas. Udhav was deeply affected by the way he saw gopis fully immersed in unconditional love for Krishna and specially when he met Radha.Gopis taught Udhav to fall in love,lose yourself let everything go, to feel melting of soul just like when a river loses itself when it meets sea.This is feature of true devotee who lets everything go and live only for Unconditional Love which is nothing but Krishna.
Udhav shredded all his knowledge proudness and started feeling like gopis and returned to Krishna by chanting his name along with Vrindavan soil’s dust on his head.